I wonder how many people out there are lost in a world of make believe.
I wonder how many people realise that they are living with a monster in their minds that makes real healing impossible.
I wonder how many people have tried to do something to bring about healing.
And I wonder how many people are still lost on that path, who have tried so many modes of healing and still not getting the freedom from their problems that they so desire.
Let me tell you, I was one of those people! Lost for years, with the suspicion that I needed to change something. The need to find peace, spirituality, God. Call it what you will, I really had no idea myself.
I will talk about the things I tried under another post “The Spiritual Picnic”. You’d better believe I had all those self help books though!! And angel cards, and crystals. None of it seemed to do much for me except to apply a little feel good band aid temporarily.
I was still not peaceful in my mind, always thinking. Always either depressed by analysing what had happened or anxious about what may come. It was no way to live: I suffered, and to a degree, hated my life.
A time came that situations forced me into a real corner. An all time low. Rock bottom. I had no real choice but to face who I was, to face my problems and issues head on. My ego crumbled and had no more answers for me. Who I thought I was dissolved. I was looking into a very dark hole and I was deeply terrified and alone. I intend to write about all of this in other posts, after all, I did promise a full account.
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